Joyeux Noel!

I'm headed to Kelowna for the holidays. I hope everyone has a safe holiday season. Drinks lots of wine!!!!

seems that nothing is black and white anymore.

Its been a while.
I've slowly stopped writing in this thing.
I guess I just don't feel like I have anything to say.
But the second I do, I'll be back.

Until then.

Warm Fuzzies

Every couple of weeks I have these two ladies that come into my work for spinach salad and ME.
They always ask to be seated in my section and they make me feel like I'm the best server to have ever lived.

Be it busy or slow, whether I'm happy or stressed, they always seem to put me in a good mood.

They always order the same thing and its not extravagant and they don't even tip me all that much but they make me feel special and make me appreciate my job that much more.

Some people out there aren't so bad after all!

bonne anniversaire sylvie!

Guess What?

I have officially been living in Calgary for an entire year! I almost can't believe it. Never ceases to amaze me how fast time flies by.

I had good times.
I had bad times.
I had scary times.
I was homesick.
And I had the most amazing times of my entire life.
I met some people that I can't believe I have ever lived without.

Here's to more happiness in this fair city.

Keep it coming!

winter's curse is just around the bend.

Well, autumn is finally here! I can't believe how quickly summer flew by. Its scarf and sweater season and its getting darker a lot earlier. Somewhat bittersweet.

It snowed this morning. Huge white flakes fell for more than an hour.

sNOOOOOw.

Thankfully none of it stuck around. I'm definitely hoping for a chinook soon.

My birthday is coming up. I'm getting old! I don't have anything planned at this moment other than Eric's show but I would definitely like to do something.

Work is going really well. With the end of summer comes the start of busy season. I've been making some good money which is allowing me to FINALLY bounce back from my vacation in July.

Until next time!

Hello darkness my old friend.

Does anyone even read this thing???

I feel as though if I was to scream out I would just hear an endless echo.

Hello
Hello
Helloooooooo

p.s.

Silence like a cancer grows.

Currently obsessed with this song:

Simon And Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence

I'll spare you the lyrics and let you click the link and listen for yourself if you're interested.

SO, I know that I've been slacking big time with this blog. I also know that its hard for people to stay interested if I don't update regularly. I guess my life just isn't interesting enough to warrant multiple updates.

Sucks to be me!

I had a little drunken accident the other night and sprained my ankle. I wasn't doing anything extravagant. Sure, I had a couple of drinks but I was merely walking when it happened.
Leave it to me and my clumsiness.
I haven't worked in 3 days or done very much of anything for that matter. Pretty sure I'm slowly going crazy. Not only can I not afford this time off but I also feel very useless. Thankfully, I'm starting to feel better...and hey...at least I didn't break anything.

I'm going to see Silverstein and Ten Second Epic (<3) in September. I'm very much looking forward to this. Heaven forbid I haven't seen TSE in over two months. They never get old.

Anywhooo, I suppose that's all for now.

More later.

Sylvie Gee

time flies (except when you're flying)

I suppose I'm due for an update since I've been home from Ontario for about a week.

Quickly:

I had a blast, I ate a lot and I saw a lot of beautiful faces that I hadn't seen in far too long.

I'm not letting another 10 months go by without visiting.

To top it all off, Leanne will be here in 3 days. I'm a lucky girl!!!

p.s. FOB and BLINK were EPIC

all for now.
more later.

Things I would like to accomplish while I'm home:

-FRIENDS, DOG, AND FAMILY
-Dranks
-Tons of Sapporo Ichibang (kimchi!!!!!)
-Laughing Buddha Patio
-Townehouse (accompanied by some foosballl)
-Haircut
-Chiropractor
-Coles
-B.A. Johnson



2 days!

colarado sunrise.

has been on repeat for the last hour.




And if i had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosy lips and never let you off me.
shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.

I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made
cuz my tongue is tied to tonsils and i need to shit and shave
im a shade to pale for handsome and have habits i can't shake
but if you try to take that from me well I'll never be the same.

train wreck that i am.

and as long as it's okay with you i think i'll stay right here.
i got no where to go cuz where to go is up to you, dear.
happy as a clam i see the glimmer in your eyes.
hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.

no car and never cared because i got no place to go.
but in a room, a single wall, i couldn't pay a plant to grow
you can try and make this pretty, pick up all my dirty clothes.
and if you never really get me then i guess you'll never know

the train wreck that i am.

I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made
plus my tongue is tied to tonsils and i need to shit and shave
I'm shade to pale for handsome and have habits i can't shake
but if you try to take that from me well i wouldn't be the same

train wreck that i am.

"and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

Hello Blogger...

Guess what???

10 DAYS UNTIL I'M IN SUDBURY!

It's gonna be a helluva time.

even the losers get lucky sometimes.

I haven't written something of substance in a long time. I suppose its about time.

Twas a pretty busy week. Went to see Evil Dead the Musical. I was front row and walked out of there nice and bloody. Definitely a fun time.

On Friday, I went to Sylvan Lake Alberta for the first time. Its a cute little beach town. Didn't really get to see much of it so hopefully I can do that next time.

I missed Russell Peters but I would rather not go into details because it makes me sad every time I think about it.

I'm the brokest I have ever been since November. Its BRUTAL. I worked twice last week. Luckily next week is looking a little bit better.

Calgary Stampede is coming up. I'm looking forward to that. I can't get into the whole "cowboy" thing though. My work expects me to dress up... this should be interesting.

About three weeks until I go home for a visit. I am very excited for this.

I suppose that's all for now.

XO

i should follow my own advice.

live deliberate.
our words are eternal.
life is ours for the taking.

-CG

dunno.

rain rain go away....

Its June...

Only in Calgary will it snow, rain and hail all in one day.

Its depressing.

nothing comes as easy as you.

Guess who this girl is seeing in July?!?!?!

BLINK 182 and FALL OUT BOY!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

That pretty much sums up how I feel about it.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


I also have Evil Dead The Musical to look forward to. (splatter zone tickets at that)
And Russell Peters at the end of the month.
And Warped Tour in August.

*sigh* the beauty of living in a big city.

xo

2 posts in 1 day.

This is arguably the most beautiful song ever written.

And it never gets old.

As someone sets light to the first fire of autumn
We settle down to cut ourselves apart.
Cough and twitch from the news on your face
And some foreign candle burning in your eyes.

Held to the past too aware of the pending
Chill as the dawn breaks and finds us up for sale.
Enter the fog another low road descending
Away from the cold lust, your house and summertime.

Blind to the last cursed affair pistols and countless eyes
A trail of white blood betrays the reckless route your craft is running.
Feed till the sun turns into wood dousing an ancient torch
Loiter the whole day through and lose yourself in lines dissecting love.

Your name on my cast and my notes on your stay
Offer me little but doting on a crime.
We've turned every stone and for all our inventions
In matters of love loss, we've no recourse at all.

Blind to the last cursed affair pistols and countless eyes
A trail of white blood betrays the reckless route your craft is running.
Feed till the sun turns into wood dousing an ancient torch.
Loiter the whole day through and lose yourself in lines dissecting love.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SmGSKJJmhDo

troopers and cream.

This would make my life!

rocktweet

I miss rock climbing.

I miss Tweeter.

I miss rock climbing with Tweeter.

He went back to Ontario about a month and a half ago and it sucks.

The end.

She's like exposed brick. Its not really as classy as people in Manhattan apartments will tell you.

Hmmmm what to say...

-I died my hair blueberry black the other day. Its slowly growing on me.

-My long weekend was... interesting to say the least.

-I wish the water heater in this damn house worked better. Haven't had a decent bath in ages.

-I saw Star Trek last week and it was amazing. Looking forward to seeing Angels and Demons.

-I haven't gotten an e-mail from Raph in over 2 weeks. Since I know he reads this: "you are about 2 e-mails behind, get on that shit!"

-I work with a bunch of pregnant women. Since I've started working at Moxies 2 girls have gone on maternity leave and 4 have gotten knocked up. I think the Alberta government is spiking the water in hopes of spiking the economy.

-Rain rain go away come back another day.

Yeeeep. Pretty random.

Good things groooow in Ontario!

Guess what!

I officially have my learners permit. Everyone get off the streets now!!!!

All joking aside, for some reason the province of Alberta thought it would be a good idea to give me a class 7 drivers license even though my Ontario G1 license has been expired for over two years. I'm pretty sure I haven't even driven a car since I was 17. Stranger things have happened I suppose. Its time for me to git'er done anyways. I'm 22 after all.

In even more exciting news:

I booked my flight home for my visit in July!!!!

I'll be in the old Scuzzbury for ten days of awesomeness. The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the actually flight. Its worth it though.

The FINAL COUNTDOWN (do do do dooooo) begins.

Only Ontarians will understand this but....

I can't wait to hear: "WINNER! GAGNANT"

SBS

Currently obsessed with this song:

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWzlD7Lc6w8

"rely a bit too heavily on alcohol and irony."

I was pretty devastated when I found out that I was scheduled to work the same night as The Weakerthans were coming through town. Anyone who knows me is aware of my deep love for this band (see: the time I went to toronto with emma!)

Thankfully, luck was on my side. I finished work early and made it in time.

There is only one word to describe their set: EPIC

They played EVERY song I wanted to hear. Imagine hearing 1700 people sing along to Left and Leaving.

It was magical.

On an unrelated note:

i've got nostalgia down to my bones.

I went to this great hookah bar last night and smoked white grape flavored tobacco. The stuff is delicious but it left me with a pretty nasty headache. That's what I get for not smoking cigarettes on a regular basis. Anyways, it reminded me of summer evenings and hanging out with my peeps at my place on Jogues street.

This whole thing is one great choose your own adventure book. Only you can't look ahead and pick a good one. You can only look back and wish.

Spring is here.

All the snow is melted and the sun is shining.

Things I'm going to miss about Sudbury summers:

-evenings at the Laughing Buddah
-Townehouse patio
-bike rides and bubble tea with Leanne
-Bell Park

This is my first summer in Calgary, I hope its a good one.

FML

Since its 7 in the morning and I'm awake on my day off I might as well tell you all about this since it would be really funny if it hadn't happened to me.

I had a friend over last night and we consumed copious amounts of red wine in my hot tub. I guess we fell asleep without finishing our glasses because this morning I was rudely awakened when I somehow knocked the glass off of my nightstand.

I've spent my morning (my day off), doing laundry, attempting to take the stains out of my WHITE carpet and picking up shards of glass.

My new book is ruined, my pillows are now permanently purple and I think its going to smell like wine in here FOREVER.

Might I add that I'm also hungover.

Fuck my life!

boomerang my head. back to the city I grew up in.

Well it looks like I will be gracing Ontario with my presence the second last week of July. I am very excited for this... words can't even explain. And if that isn't enough, LEANNE is visiting in August. Look out Calgary! It will be nice to show her what I have been doing these past 6 months.

Holy Crap! 6 MONTHS!

Time flies....

between the lines.

I've been suffering from some intense "bloggers block" lately. I'll sit here for minutes on end, staring at the screen, trying to think of something interesting to write.

I suppose I will start of by saying that I'm doing really well. This place is slowly (but surely) growing on me. I still think of home everyday but the urge to move back is fading (I desperately want to visit though!) The snow is almost melted and I can feel spring in my bones.

The only real downside to life is the economy. My work hours have been cut in half. I've gone from working 6 days a week (usually with at least 1 double shift) to working 3-4 days if I'm lucky. If people don't start eating out more often I'm going to end up in the poor house.

Currently Reading: The Hobbit

Current Listening: The Beatles

Things I'm Looking Forward To:
- BA Johnston
- The Weakerthans
- Russell Peters

I suppose that's all for now.

<3

The world will look up and shout "Save us!"... And I'll whisper "No."

FUCKING AWESOME!!!

i am just a sweet tooth in the cavity search of life.

today sucked.

hopefully tomorrow is better.

rock climbing.

This is my new favorite thing. I've gone a couple of times this month and I absolutely love it. I'm not an athletic person so you can imagine how intimidating it was at the beginning. It turns out that I'm actually quite good at it.. And its a killer workout!

I'm going to take the long road there if the short way means I'm settling.

Several people have told me that the broadcasting program at Mount Royal College here in Calgary is really good. But do I really want to stick around for another 2-3 years?? That's the eternal question. Logic tells me that its probably a good idea but my heart and my gut tell me otherwise. I want to get the best education I can and start my career but I also want to be closer to my friends and my family. Calgary is very good to me and I am enjoying the time that I spend here but I don't see myself residing here permanently. Its just too far from the people I love. I guess I have some things to think about.

I've been feeling very melancholic today. Its a combination of ennui and snow. I could really use a visit from my dog right about now.

In other news, Blink 182 is back together and this is definitely very good news. Pretty sure they were and still are one of my favorites. I also found out that Russell Peters is going to be at the saddle dome sometime in June or July. I'm definitely willing to pay 100 dollars for this. The challenge will be finding someone else who is willing to dish out that much cash to accompany me.

I'm going to be taking a well needed trip to Edmonton soon. I haven't seen Carley since right before I thought I was going back to Ontario. For the first time in my life I'm not living paycheck to paycheck and I decided that I'm going to treat myself. I can't wait for this.

Rediscovering this song. Remembering how epic it was live.

"My city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
sparkled with broken glass.
I'm back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know.
Will never take me anywhere but here.

The stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand,
the strangers whose faces I know.
We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say "I wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.

All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.

Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest,
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires,
new words for old desires,
and every birthday card I threw away.

I wait in 4/4 time.
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home."

dream fast. wish hard.

Hmmmm. What to write???

Everything is pretty decent. The weather has just been absolutely beautiful lately. It was 15 degrees today. I couldn't ask for more.

My job is going really well. I'm finally starting to climb up the ranks. It seems that everyone is finally getting over the holiday slump so its starting to get a little busier again.

For the first time in about 3 years I finally have some direction in life. I think I may have finally decided on what I want to take when I go back to school. I'm still bouncing around ideas but I want to enroll in the next 2 years. I'll probably end up in Toronto.

That's all for now. More later.

xo

welcome to wherever you are.

I ate one of these today:



"A balut is a fertilized duck (or chicken) egg with a nearly-developed embryo inside that is boiled and eaten in the shell. They are common, everyday food in some countries in Southeast Asia, such as in the Philippines, Cambodia, and Vietnam."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balut_(egg)

Yeah, I know what you're thinking. It looks pretty disgusting. One of the cooks prepared some at work today and I was one of the few brave enough to try it. Not only did I try it but I ate the whole thing. It tasted like chicken and it went rather well with hot sauce.

Peta would have a field day.

not so posi.

I said these exact words yesterday "everything is going so well right now, I hope I don't jinx it."

Lo and behold, I got a phone call last night informing me that the musical is canceled. There are some issues with getting the rights to the scripts so its been called off. I just think its really shitty that they got everyone's hopes up. They should have gotten the rights before holding the auditions.

Ah well, shit happens.

I'm probably going to look into some more auditions. Now that I've gotten my toes wet again, I'm hungry for it!

posi.

It has been an unusually good week.

My parents called me last night and informed me that they were buying me a new computer. SCORE! I'm not exactly sure what I did to deserve it but I'm definitely grateful. And even though the computer I'm using works fine, it is almost 6 years old. Which is dinosaur status in the computing world.

I saw Meagan on Friday. Every time I hang out with this girl its a shit show. We went to this place called Morgan's Pub and we had a BLAST. And of course, I managed to make a fool of myself... it never fails. I was talking to this guy on my way out and slammed face first into a door.
Smooth Sylvie.
It brought some major lol's from meagan, tweet, alex and all the bouncers and random people that were near by when it happened.
And the guy litterally says to me "you may be a pretty girl but you just smashed into that door!"
.
.
thanks tips!

In other news.... I got a LEAD ROLE in the musical I auditioned for!!!! wooooooo
The rehearsals start on tuesday. I'm very excited but also a little bit scared. I've never had a lead role! It will be hard work but I'm ready for it!!!!

Thats it for now!

Stay Classy Calgary!

carpe diem - carpe noctem

The desire to come home is always over-powered by the urgency to stay gone.
Its the push and the pull.

--

I auditioned for a musical tonight. It went well for the most part but I wish I would have been less nervous. I can't help but pick everything apart and think of the things I would have done differently. Either way, my fate is now sealed and all I can do is wait.

It blows my mind to think that its been 6 years since my last musical.
6 years...
Time Flies!
and that's why its important to live for the moment.

so i leave to throw myself to the sharks.

keep on l i/o ving

Defiance, Ohio

"to the drifters! in hopes that our paths cross again.
to the homesick! home is when we do meet again.

our histories, our futures, our foundations, are hope.
it's a way to never forget.

i'll say goodbye. and hope never to mean it.
our love and our hope.
no nation or state can contain it.

if you call me up drunk, at four in the morning, no matter the timezones or state lines away.
i'll be on bus lines or burning up phone cards. just like i lived eight blocks away."


took the words right out of my mouth.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Some quotes that really hit home:

"For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

“It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. You realize what’s changed, is you.”

“We are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss.”

"It's not about how well you play, it's about how you feel about what you play."

Its good to be alive!

I've come to realize that a lot of my posts have been negative lately.

As homesick as I am, I'm actually pretty happy most of the time.

Its a beautiful day, the sun is shining.

And honestly, I wouldn't be here if I really didn't want to be.

Its just hard sometimes.

February?

I'm thinking that a visit home is in order.

But I'm afraid that if I go... I won't want to come back.

hmmmmm

I should be sleeping...

"If home is where the heart is
then we're all just fucked
I can't remember
And I want it so bad
I'd shoot the sunshine into my veins
I can't remember
The good old days

And it's kind of funny
The way we're wearing anchors on our shirts
When being anchored or bored
just feels like a curse"


Sometimes I miss home a lot.
Like now.

I need to get this out of my system. Whatever "this" may be.
It is what it is.

100 Resolutions

"Where have I been all your life?
Sitting on fences, a Novocaine for all the senses.
Another year will pass us by.
Making sense of nothing, in defense of something.
I laughed too late and dug myself into a grave.

This year I'll try not to think too much.
This year I'll try to stand up for myself.
This year I'll live like I've never lived before,
this is my year for sure.

Another stupid clumsy story.
More accidental aspirations.
Another explosion of silence.
I think I'm going deaf, or maybe I'm just hearing less.

This year I'll try to only listen to myself.
This year I'll try not to think too much.
This year I'll try to stand up for myself.
This year I'll live like I've never lived before,
this is my year for sure.

I wonder where you'll be bringing in the new year.
As midnight clocks are singing,
good chance I'll be slobbering somewhere.
Probably pass out, wasted, and sleep in til the smoke clears.
Vague memories of midnight flash in tune to morning sunlight.
Wake up knowing you'll never be there.

I've got 100 resolutions, but I've got no solutions.
I've got one song I write 100 times.
And only a dozen or so rhymes.

This year I'll try not to drink so much.
This year I'll try to stand up straight.
This year let's live liked we've never lived before,
this is our year for sure."

-The Lawrence Arms

Happy New Year guys!