Couldn't have come at a better time.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Dream Is Destiny???
December was the month of random dreams.
Some were extremely scary and some were just plain weird.
In no particular order:
1) I'm living where I live now except the house looks different and my landlord is a woman instead of a man. My room is located in the living room and is comprised of bookcases and hanging sheets to give the illusion of walls. Out of nowhere my landlord starts freaking out and informs me that I'm evicted and I need to move out a.s.a.p. I beg and beg her to let me stay long enough to pack my bags and figure something out but she refuses. Defeated, I call my mother who somehow appears in front of me, touches my ice cold hands, looks into my eyes and says "Come home, Sylvie"
2) In this one dream I find myself back in Ontario and I'm devastated. I can't figure out how I got there but I'm very upset. Since I'm back in Sudbury, I decide to swing into Coles to visit Raph. Upon arriving, I don't recognize ANYONE working. I ask to see Raph and they tell me that he's in the back room. Once I get back there I realize that the back room is in fact a labyrinth. I begin to slowly make my way through it. When I finally come out on the other side, I'm back in Calgary and EXTREMELY relieved.
3) I had a really weird dream where I walked up to a beeping microwave, opened the door, and found my amputated big toe sitting on a round plate, red, plump and steaming.
4) This particular dream was extremely terrifying. I was in the woods getting chased by this mystery "ex-boyfriend". I don't know who it was, I never saw his face. When he finally caught up to me he proceeded to pin me up against a tree and slash me with razor blades.
Those are just four of the many dreams I've had this month. I've always been a vivid dreamer. But lately, for some reason, I've felt compelled to write them down. You don't need to be a dream interpreter to figure out what a couple of these are saying.
Either way, I think I need to stop eating before bed!
Some were extremely scary and some were just plain weird.
In no particular order:
1) I'm living where I live now except the house looks different and my landlord is a woman instead of a man. My room is located in the living room and is comprised of bookcases and hanging sheets to give the illusion of walls. Out of nowhere my landlord starts freaking out and informs me that I'm evicted and I need to move out a.s.a.p. I beg and beg her to let me stay long enough to pack my bags and figure something out but she refuses. Defeated, I call my mother who somehow appears in front of me, touches my ice cold hands, looks into my eyes and says "Come home, Sylvie"
2) In this one dream I find myself back in Ontario and I'm devastated. I can't figure out how I got there but I'm very upset. Since I'm back in Sudbury, I decide to swing into Coles to visit Raph. Upon arriving, I don't recognize ANYONE working. I ask to see Raph and they tell me that he's in the back room. Once I get back there I realize that the back room is in fact a labyrinth. I begin to slowly make my way through it. When I finally come out on the other side, I'm back in Calgary and EXTREMELY relieved.
3) I had a really weird dream where I walked up to a beeping microwave, opened the door, and found my amputated big toe sitting on a round plate, red, plump and steaming.
4) This particular dream was extremely terrifying. I was in the woods getting chased by this mystery "ex-boyfriend". I don't know who it was, I never saw his face. When he finally caught up to me he proceeded to pin me up against a tree and slash me with razor blades.
Those are just four of the many dreams I've had this month. I've always been a vivid dreamer. But lately, for some reason, I've felt compelled to write them down. You don't need to be a dream interpreter to figure out what a couple of these are saying.
Either way, I think I need to stop eating before bed!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
hey lush have fun, its the weekend!
Another weekend.
Another Saturday sitting in my pajamas at 9pm.
If you would have told me 5 months ago that I would be home on a Saturday night I wouldn't have believed you.
My lack of partying should be considered a good thing. Too bad I feel like I'm missing a part of myself.
I would do anything for a night at The Townehouse.
I would do anything for the familiar faces, the bands, the patio, RICHARD, Foosball, jagerbombs and yes, even the dirty bathrooms!
You can take the girl from the party but you can't take the party from the girl.
I wonder how long before I cave, get wasted, and go out alone (i wouldn't actually do this but its interesting to entertain the idea)
On the upside, I'm saving a lot of money.
....Too bad I would rather be broke and having fun.
Signing off,
Bored and Sober
Another Saturday sitting in my pajamas at 9pm.
If you would have told me 5 months ago that I would be home on a Saturday night I wouldn't have believed you.
My lack of partying should be considered a good thing. Too bad I feel like I'm missing a part of myself.
I would do anything for a night at The Townehouse.
I would do anything for the familiar faces, the bands, the patio, RICHARD, Foosball, jagerbombs and yes, even the dirty bathrooms!
You can take the girl from the party but you can't take the party from the girl.
I wonder how long before I cave, get wasted, and go out alone (i wouldn't actually do this but its interesting to entertain the idea)
On the upside, I'm saving a lot of money.
....Too bad I would rather be broke and having fun.
Signing off,
Bored and Sober
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Its Christmas in California and its hard to ignore that it feels like summer all the time.
Well, I'll take a West Coast Winter. To remove my splinters.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
ba humbug!
Current
pros:
-lady gaga
-partying with Meagan on Thursday
-receiving a package from my parents
-day off tomorrow
-new hair
-the time travelers wife
Current
cons:
-COLD weather
-working a double shift and making more from hourly wage than from tips
-bitchy christmas customers
-crappy Saturday nights
-infected ear
pros:
-lady gaga
-partying with Meagan on Thursday
-receiving a package from my parents
-day off tomorrow
-new hair
-the time travelers wife
Current
cons:
-COLD weather
-working a double shift and making more from hourly wage than from tips
-bitchy christmas customers
-crappy Saturday nights
-infected ear
Friday, December 12, 2008
when I fall, when I break, these friends carry me through.
Nothing brightens up a boring and depressing Friday night like getting a phone call from your drunken friends. Not only did they play THE FINAL COUNTDOWN (do do do dooooo) for me but they also passed around the phone as if it were a dirty whore.
These people are the reason that its so hard to be out here. I miss these fools!
These people are the reason that its so hard to be out here. I miss these fools!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
In these deep city lights, girl could get lost tonight.
I don't really have much to say. I haven't updated in a while so I felt somewhat obligated to write something. Staying away from this place for too long fucks with my chi.
It turns out that I'll be working Christmas eve. This is totally lame because I was really looking forward to a couple of days in Lake Louise. IF I still go it will be more like 24 hours in Lake Louise.
I shouldn't really complain. I actually like my job and I make a good amount of money. It could be worse. The days of working 12 hour shifts and making no money are still very fresh in my mind.
In other news, the weather in Calgary is really unpredictable. On December 1st it was 15 degrees (gotta love those Chinook winds) and then not even a week later god took a really big dump on us. I might have jinxed it by bragging to everyone in Ontario that the weather was so amazing. Either way, it still hasn't been any colder than -10. Right now its 3 degrees and its 10 o'clock.
It turns out that I'll be working Christmas eve. This is totally lame because I was really looking forward to a couple of days in Lake Louise. IF I still go it will be more like 24 hours in Lake Louise.
I shouldn't really complain. I actually like my job and I make a good amount of money. It could be worse. The days of working 12 hour shifts and making no money are still very fresh in my mind.
In other news, the weather in Calgary is really unpredictable. On December 1st it was 15 degrees (gotta love those Chinook winds) and then not even a week later god took a really big dump on us. I might have jinxed it by bragging to everyone in Ontario that the weather was so amazing. Either way, it still hasn't been any colder than -10. Right now its 3 degrees and its 10 o'clock.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
held to the past, too aware of the pending.
It looks like I will be spending Christmas in Lake Louise with Meagan, the Quebec boys, Tweeter (hopefully) and a friend that I haven't seen since HIGH SCHOOL that I ran into at the mall the other night.
Life is pretty boring lately. It was my day off and I almost wish that I could have gone into work.
For my New Years resolution I'm going to try and be more punctual. If you know me, you know that this isn't one of my strong points. Its strange because I used to be early or on time for everything when I was younger. I think it changed when I started going to college for one reason or another. I always leave everything to the last minute and I'm tired of running after the bus.
I'm definitely going to add to this list as I think of other stuff. I'll be lucky if I follow through with one of these things.
In other news, I'm reading On The Road by Jack Kerouac right now. Its brilliant and its just what I need.
I've also been feeling somewhat inspired as of late. I wrote something for the first time in years. Its crap and it will never see the light of day but it made me feel accomplished nonetheless. Its a shame that I only feel like writing when I'm feeling negative in one way or another. Whatever works I suppose.
With that I leave you with some excerpts from On The Road.
Cheers!
"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars."
"I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn't know who I was--I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creek of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn't scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across America, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future."
Life is pretty boring lately. It was my day off and I almost wish that I could have gone into work.
For my New Years resolution I'm going to try and be more punctual. If you know me, you know that this isn't one of my strong points. Its strange because I used to be early or on time for everything when I was younger. I think it changed when I started going to college for one reason or another. I always leave everything to the last minute and I'm tired of running after the bus.
I'm definitely going to add to this list as I think of other stuff. I'll be lucky if I follow through with one of these things.
In other news, I'm reading On The Road by Jack Kerouac right now. Its brilliant and its just what I need.
I've also been feeling somewhat inspired as of late. I wrote something for the first time in years. Its crap and it will never see the light of day but it made me feel accomplished nonetheless. Its a shame that I only feel like writing when I'm feeling negative in one way or another. Whatever works I suppose.
With that I leave you with some excerpts from On The Road.
Cheers!
"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars."
"I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn't know who I was--I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creek of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn't scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across America, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future."
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Work it, make it, do it, makes us harder, better, faster, stronger!
Lately, several people have told me how strong they think I am.
I have a lot of irrational fears. I've never thought of myself as brave or even strong. I often have to calm my racing heart and I have to sometimes talk myself through simple little acts because of how terrified/nervous I am.
I suppose its all about "feeling the fear and doing it anyway!"
Side Note:
Work is going really well. I start taking my own tables tomorrow. I'm only suppose to start doing this after 5 shifts but I've only had 3 training shifts. Go me!
I have a lot of irrational fears. I've never thought of myself as brave or even strong. I often have to calm my racing heart and I have to sometimes talk myself through simple little acts because of how terrified/nervous I am.
I suppose its all about "feeling the fear and doing it anyway!"
Side Note:
Work is going really well. I start taking my own tables tomorrow. I'm only suppose to start doing this after 5 shifts but I've only had 3 training shifts. Go me!
Friday, November 21, 2008
But the snow melts and the rhythm still goes on.
There is something poetic about being alone on a cold winters night.
There is something about winter that makes me crave comfort, familiarity.
I finally have my life in order so why don't I feel like I'm in control?
I shouldn't complain. This is what I wanted after all. The things I do to myself to try and keep my sanity. I just wish there was some way of combining the best of both worlds. Or should I say the best of both provinces. I feel like I took about 5 steps back this past week. I'm at the finish line in some ways, back to square one in others.
I make it sound all bad but it really isn't. I'm just impatient I suppose.
When winter falls,
I’ll be holding on to anything nailed down.
As for being patient,
With fate and all it's getting old.
And my mind is slowly changing.
I’m calling all my oldest friends,
Saying sorry for this mess we’re in.
And I’m waiting, waiting,
For the sun to come and melt this snow,
Wash away the pain and give me back control.
There is something about winter that makes me crave comfort, familiarity.
I finally have my life in order so why don't I feel like I'm in control?
I shouldn't complain. This is what I wanted after all. The things I do to myself to try and keep my sanity. I just wish there was some way of combining the best of both worlds. Or should I say the best of both provinces. I feel like I took about 5 steps back this past week. I'm at the finish line in some ways, back to square one in others.
I make it sound all bad but it really isn't. I'm just impatient I suppose.
When winter falls,
I’ll be holding on to anything nailed down.
As for being patient,
With fate and all it's getting old.
And my mind is slowly changing.
I’m calling all my oldest friends,
Saying sorry for this mess we’re in.
And I’m waiting, waiting,
For the sun to come and melt this snow,
Wash away the pain and give me back control.
This town is dry and I ain't talking about oil or booze.
I've got a place to live.
I've got a job.
but now I'm lonely.
I've got a job.
but now I'm lonely.
In a fight without a cause I am a wounded veteran.
I found a really nice place to live. Its completely out of the way but its pretty much perfect. I'm really lucky to have found something so last minute. I also got a serving job near where I live. I start Monday. It's going to be nice to have a routine again.
Its finally winter here. It came out of nowhere and it looks like its sticking around. I should have expected it. I mean, its almost December after all. I need to buy some boots and dig out my thermal underwear. Its looks like I'm going to be spending my first Christmas away from home. Gotta grow up sometime.
Its finally winter here. It came out of nowhere and it looks like its sticking around. I should have expected it. I mean, its almost December after all. I need to buy some boots and dig out my thermal underwear. Its looks like I'm going to be spending my first Christmas away from home. Gotta grow up sometime.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
I miss you like Jesus without a cross.
It finally snowed in Calgary.
I haven't mentioned this before but something happened with the apartment I was suppose to move into in December so now me and Adam (roomies name) are looking for somewhere else to live. I've come to realize that I hate apartment hunting. C-town has some pretty nice places to offer though. A little bit pricey but its a nice change from the -1% occupancy in Sudbury.
Do you know what I despise even more than aparment hunting? Job hunting. I really don't want to jinx it but I had a job interview today. It went really well and I should find out next week if I got the job. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
I don't really have much to update. Its the same shit really. I'm just anxious to get my life in order.
I wish I could have heard this song two months ago when it really applied to my life. Bayside knows best.
I swear I can't stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer I have to stay
I want to think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn't say
I need a change
With that said I'm leaving today
I've got some concrete ideas
and they've been paving my way towards all the
downtown's and urban decay
there's so much life to these bricks
so much buildings can say
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
We don’t know where were going we forgot where we came from
I thought there was blood left in this stone
Turns out that I was wrong
I hope you find the place that feels like home
And a heighten sense of strength
And a stronger sense of self
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
We don’t know where were going we forgot where we came from
I haven't mentioned this before but something happened with the apartment I was suppose to move into in December so now me and Adam (roomies name) are looking for somewhere else to live. I've come to realize that I hate apartment hunting. C-town has some pretty nice places to offer though. A little bit pricey but its a nice change from the -1% occupancy in Sudbury.
Do you know what I despise even more than aparment hunting? Job hunting. I really don't want to jinx it but I had a job interview today. It went really well and I should find out next week if I got the job. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
I don't really have much to update. Its the same shit really. I'm just anxious to get my life in order.
I wish I could have heard this song two months ago when it really applied to my life. Bayside knows best.
I swear I can't stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer I have to stay
I want to think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn't say
I need a change
With that said I'm leaving today
I've got some concrete ideas
and they've been paving my way towards all the
downtown's and urban decay
there's so much life to these bricks
so much buildings can say
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
We don’t know where were going we forgot where we came from
I thought there was blood left in this stone
Turns out that I was wrong
I hope you find the place that feels like home
And a heighten sense of strength
And a stronger sense of self
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
We don’t know where were going we forgot where we came from
Monday, November 3, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
jay oh bee
“The best way to appreciate your job is to imagine yourself without one.”
- Oscar Wilde
I still haven't found a job. I'm starting to lose hope and motivation. I've been everywhere and back. I've tried two temp agencies. I'm constantly on Craigs List and Kijiji sending out resumes. I just can't win. I have no money. I'm flap broke. Thats what happen when you live in a crazy expensive city for a whole month without an income. I went from working twelve hours almost everyday to not working at all. I need to get out there!
Other than that, everything is pretty rocking. The weather has been just absolutely beautiful. Last week we saw temperatures reach almost 20 degrees and today it was sunny and hot and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Calgary is the perfect city for me based solely on the fact that its the sunniest city in Canada.
- Oscar Wilde
I still haven't found a job. I'm starting to lose hope and motivation. I've been everywhere and back. I've tried two temp agencies. I'm constantly on Craigs List and Kijiji sending out resumes. I just can't win. I have no money. I'm flap broke. Thats what happen when you live in a crazy expensive city for a whole month without an income. I went from working twelve hours almost everyday to not working at all. I need to get out there!
Other than that, everything is pretty rocking. The weather has been just absolutely beautiful. Last week we saw temperatures reach almost 20 degrees and today it was sunny and hot and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Calgary is the perfect city for me based solely on the fact that its the sunniest city in Canada.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
call it a dare
"Leave home
Leave familiar
Leave the course you're on because you never wanted to be here in the first place.
Leave him
Leave her
Leave because they don't appreciate your love, now do they really?
Leave working for someone else's dream
Leave the shitty scene
Leave your comfortable couch
Leave convention
Respectability
Responsibility
Obligation.
Leave the guilt
sorrow
abuse
violence
rape
Leave it in the past because fuck them for attempting to ruin your future.
Leave apprehension
Leave intimidation
Leave "what's right", because who are they to tell you anyway.
Leave Glasgow
Leave New York
Leave Miami
Leave Chicago
a plane
Bus
Train
School application
Job application
Leave soul killing jobs
Leave negative people
Leave dead relationships
You are wasting your time
Your life
Your talent
Your love
Your opportunity
And with each passing day you slowly lose your shine
your glow
your spark
your fight
your heart.
You talk about it all the time.
Just fucking leave...
And find yourself."
-CG
Leave familiar
Leave the course you're on because you never wanted to be here in the first place.
Leave him
Leave her
Leave because they don't appreciate your love, now do they really?
Leave working for someone else's dream
Leave the shitty scene
Leave your comfortable couch
Leave convention
Respectability
Responsibility
Obligation.
Leave the guilt
sorrow
abuse
violence
rape
Leave it in the past because fuck them for attempting to ruin your future.
Leave apprehension
Leave intimidation
Leave "what's right", because who are they to tell you anyway.
Leave Glasgow
Leave New York
Leave Miami
Leave Chicago
a plane
Bus
Train
School application
Job application
Leave soul killing jobs
Leave negative people
Leave dead relationships
You are wasting your time
Your life
Your talent
Your love
Your opportunity
And with each passing day you slowly lose your shine
your glow
your spark
your fight
your heart.
You talk about it all the time.
Just fucking leave...
And find yourself."
-CG
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
sunsets in calgary make the sky look like its on fire.
Taken at 6:30 pm.
I'm just going to link the picture because posting it here makes it look bad.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v169/sylvie58/IMG_2662.jpg
I'm just going to link the picture because posting it here makes it look bad.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v169/sylvie58/IMG_2662.jpg
Saturday, October 25, 2008
running down a dream that never would come to me.
I think I might finally have a job. That damn temp agency finally got in touch with me. Unfortunately I was up in the mountains and missed the call. Once I got back into town I returned the phone call so hopefully I'll have more info on Monday.
FYI the mountains are majestic. There is nothing I could do or say and no amount of pictures that will do it justice.
I've decided to finally take guitar lessons. Once I start making money I'm going to hire someone to come to my house once a week and show me how its done.
Some Random But Interesting Things That Have Happened Recently:
- They were shooting a cop movie downtown last week. I'd never seen anything like it. They had props and light and extras everywhere. It was really neat.
- I found an amazing used bookstore downtown. The shelves towered over me and I could have gotten lost in their Contemporary Literature section .
- TUBBY DOG. The best and fattest restaurent I've ever been to. I had a hot dog with cheese, mayo, bacon, mustard, ketchup and potato chips. delicious! Next time I think I'm going to try sherm's ultimate gripper. Its a dog wrapped in bacon and then deep fried, topped with ham, homemade chili, cheese, mustard, bacon, hot peppers, caramelized onions and a fried egg. Can you say YUM?
Funny Calgary Facts:
-Down here, pedestrians ALWAYS have the right of way. They stop and let people cross pretty much anywhere. cross walk or not.
FYI the mountains are majestic. There is nothing I could do or say and no amount of pictures that will do it justice.
I've decided to finally take guitar lessons. Once I start making money I'm going to hire someone to come to my house once a week and show me how its done.
Some Random But Interesting Things That Have Happened Recently:
- They were shooting a cop movie downtown last week. I'd never seen anything like it. They had props and light and extras everywhere. It was really neat.
- I found an amazing used bookstore downtown. The shelves towered over me and I could have gotten lost in their Contemporary Literature section .
- TUBBY DOG. The best and fattest restaurent I've ever been to. I had a hot dog with cheese, mayo, bacon, mustard, ketchup and potato chips. delicious! Next time I think I'm going to try sherm's ultimate gripper. Its a dog wrapped in bacon and then deep fried, topped with ham, homemade chili, cheese, mustard, bacon, hot peppers, caramelized onions and a fried egg. Can you say YUM?
Funny Calgary Facts:
-Down here, pedestrians ALWAYS have the right of way. They stop and let people cross pretty much anywhere. cross walk or not.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
just keep dreaming and you'll find a place and a part of you, you thought was dead.
Toto, I've a feeling we're not in Ontario anymore.
The view from Calgary Tower.
The view from Calgary Tower.
Friday, October 17, 2008
and I know that this is new like your first day of school.
It seems that things are falling into place quite nicely. I found a place to live come December 1st. I'm moving in with a friend of a friend. The apartment is right downtown (amazing location!!) the room is nice and big, lots of closet space, and the girl who is moving out is leaving me her bed and her desk. I don't even need to worry about buying any furniture. It's perfect!! Not to mention, the price is right.
The job search isn't going as well as I'd hoped. I applied at a temp agency. Basically what they do is they place you in different office jobs around the city as you're needed. The upside to this is that it keeps things interesting since you're changing jobs all the time. The downside is that I'm not really sure if I like working in an office. I'm thinking it might help me explore things I wouldn't otherwise think of trying. So who knows, maybe I'll love it. They haven't called me yet and I'm getting tired of sitting around waiting for a call.
2 weeks + no job = i feel useless
Not to mention I need to start saving up to pay first and last. I think that once I'm living downtown I'll just get a job serving at one of the amazing bars/restaurants near my apartment.
I'm very excited for this weekend. We've got some really fun stuff planned. I finally get to see the mountains up close. This is the reason I came down here in the first place. I'm sure standing in front of those huge peaks will make me feel very small and insignificant. We're also going to a shooting range. Yes, I'm apparently going to shoot a gun. I don't know how I feel about this but it might be fun. I'll make sure to take lots of pictures.
And on a final note. Last night while talking to my mom on the phone she reminded me that it's my birthday soon. There has just been so much happening in the last month that it completely slipped my mind.
22 years old. time flies
Until next time!!!!
"Let's fall deeper into sleep
And our dreams become fake reality
I wake, i hope.
I'm on my way, to a coast
Where I know the roads like the back of my hand
Familiar landscapes"
The job search isn't going as well as I'd hoped. I applied at a temp agency. Basically what they do is they place you in different office jobs around the city as you're needed. The upside to this is that it keeps things interesting since you're changing jobs all the time. The downside is that I'm not really sure if I like working in an office. I'm thinking it might help me explore things I wouldn't otherwise think of trying. So who knows, maybe I'll love it. They haven't called me yet and I'm getting tired of sitting around waiting for a call.
2 weeks + no job = i feel useless
Not to mention I need to start saving up to pay first and last. I think that once I'm living downtown I'll just get a job serving at one of the amazing bars/restaurants near my apartment.
I'm very excited for this weekend. We've got some really fun stuff planned. I finally get to see the mountains up close. This is the reason I came down here in the first place. I'm sure standing in front of those huge peaks will make me feel very small and insignificant. We're also going to a shooting range. Yes, I'm apparently going to shoot a gun. I don't know how I feel about this but it might be fun. I'll make sure to take lots of pictures.
And on a final note. Last night while talking to my mom on the phone she reminded me that it's my birthday soon. There has just been so much happening in the last month that it completely slipped my mind.
22 years old. time flies
Until next time!!!!
"Let's fall deeper into sleep
And our dreams become fake reality
I wake, i hope.
I'm on my way, to a coast
Where I know the roads like the back of my hand
Familiar landscapes"
Saturday, October 11, 2008
my reach is global. my cause is noble.
SG is finally online.
This town is incredible. There is no way around it.
I experienced my first bout of homesickness when my friends (aka: my family) all called me last night. But to be honest... I really expected it to be harder than this. Don't get me wrong. Its really hard to be away from the people I love but I still haven't had any second thoughts about my decision. I'm slowly meeting people and making friends. I'm still amazed at how nice and welcoming people are in this town. I have only met ONE original Calgary resident since I've moved down here. Oddly enough everyone is either from New Brunswick or Ontario.
I still haven't found a job. I had a promising opportunity working in the kitchen at an AMAZING bistro but they were looking for kitchen staff... not servers. I thought that maybe I could jump right back in and work in a kitchen again after my two year break.
I was wrong.
It's really horrible to realize that my thousands of dollars went to waste but I really can't work in a kitchen anymore. I was really convinced that one day I would maybe be able to pick up where I left off but the reality of the matter is that it will NEVER happen. After working a shift in the kitchen the other night I have come to realize just how much I despise working on a line. It's really a shame because I would have fit in so perfectly at this establishment. Everyone took me in with open arms and I just loved the size, the atmosphere and even the owner of the place. I'm disappointed that he didn't have any serving jobs available. I didn't burn any bridges though and if he ever needs someone he said he would give me a call first and foremost. So keep your fingers crossed for me.
I'm going to end this for now because it's really late and I'm drowsy but I still have soooooo much to say therefore I will update the first chance I get.
keep on l i/o ving.
SG
This town is incredible. There is no way around it.
I experienced my first bout of homesickness when my friends (aka: my family) all called me last night. But to be honest... I really expected it to be harder than this. Don't get me wrong. Its really hard to be away from the people I love but I still haven't had any second thoughts about my decision. I'm slowly meeting people and making friends. I'm still amazed at how nice and welcoming people are in this town. I have only met ONE original Calgary resident since I've moved down here. Oddly enough everyone is either from New Brunswick or Ontario.
I still haven't found a job. I had a promising opportunity working in the kitchen at an AMAZING bistro but they were looking for kitchen staff... not servers. I thought that maybe I could jump right back in and work in a kitchen again after my two year break.
I was wrong.
It's really horrible to realize that my thousands of dollars went to waste but I really can't work in a kitchen anymore. I was really convinced that one day I would maybe be able to pick up where I left off but the reality of the matter is that it will NEVER happen. After working a shift in the kitchen the other night I have come to realize just how much I despise working on a line. It's really a shame because I would have fit in so perfectly at this establishment. Everyone took me in with open arms and I just loved the size, the atmosphere and even the owner of the place. I'm disappointed that he didn't have any serving jobs available. I didn't burn any bridges though and if he ever needs someone he said he would give me a call first and foremost. So keep your fingers crossed for me.
I'm going to end this for now because it's really late and I'm drowsy but I still have soooooo much to say therefore I will update the first chance I get.
keep on l i/o ving.
SG
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
SWEET JESUS I FOUND WIFI
I have been carrying my computer around with me in hopes of finding some internet to steal. That day is finally upon us.
So after all the decisions and planning and packing and worrying and tears.
I am FINALLY here.
It feels surreal to say the least. The plane ride was very long and turbulent. I was very nauseous so I popped two gravol and passed out for three hours. Thank goodness for drugs.
This town is very strange. I feel like I'm in another world. The traffic lights hang horizontal instead of vertical and some of the fire hydrants I've encountered are green.
This is really rushed. I have a lot to say but my computer is dying. I should have the internet this week sometime so I'll update for real when I have the time and can actually get everything out coherently.
It's good to be alive!
Stay in love, fall in touch,
Sylvie Gee
So after all the decisions and planning and packing and worrying and tears.
I am FINALLY here.
It feels surreal to say the least. The plane ride was very long and turbulent. I was very nauseous so I popped two gravol and passed out for three hours. Thank goodness for drugs.
This town is very strange. I feel like I'm in another world. The traffic lights hang horizontal instead of vertical and some of the fire hydrants I've encountered are green.
This is really rushed. I have a lot to say but my computer is dying. I should have the internet this week sometime so I'll update for real when I have the time and can actually get everything out coherently.
It's good to be alive!
Stay in love, fall in touch,
Sylvie Gee
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I wake up to find its another four aspirin morning and I dive in.
Ow my head...
I'm such a drama queen.
My last entry was all sorts of awesome.
Despite all the tears, I had a blast last night. It makes it that much harder to leave.
Side note (LOL): butler is wearing holey tighty whiteys right now (or should I say loosey whiteys because they are DEFINITELY not tight) and I definitely just saw his junk.
I'm gonna miss my friends.
I am very calm right now, lets take bets on how long that will last.
This will most likely be my last post until I am in Calgary. I have a very long plane ride ahead of me.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
I'm such a drama queen.
My last entry was all sorts of awesome.
Despite all the tears, I had a blast last night. It makes it that much harder to leave.
Side note (LOL): butler is wearing holey tighty whiteys right now (or should I say loosey whiteys because they are DEFINITELY not tight) and I definitely just saw his junk.
I'm gonna miss my friends.
I am very calm right now, lets take bets on how long that will last.
This will most likely be my last post until I am in Calgary. I have a very long plane ride ahead of me.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Friday, October 3, 2008
nobody said it was easy,
Well.
Here I am.
Not quite sure what to say.
My goodbye party just finished.
Pretty sure I cried so much I now look like a crack whore.
I have said so many hellos and goodbyes in the last five years yet it never gets any easier.
I can`t believe I leave tomorrow.
I found out who is taking my job at Coles tonight. For some reason that BREAKS my heart. It feels like my boyfriend is cheating on me. I guess I have to let go eventually. Its just really hard to feel like I have been replaced. I have to keep reminding myself that this is for my own good.
Here I am, uncanded and rambling.
More tomorrow before I leave, when I will actually make some sense.
Here I am.
Not quite sure what to say.
My goodbye party just finished.
Pretty sure I cried so much I now look like a crack whore.
I have said so many hellos and goodbyes in the last five years yet it never gets any easier.
I can`t believe I leave tomorrow.
I found out who is taking my job at Coles tonight. For some reason that BREAKS my heart. It feels like my boyfriend is cheating on me. I guess I have to let go eventually. Its just really hard to feel like I have been replaced. I have to keep reminding myself that this is for my own good.
Here I am, uncanded and rambling.
More tomorrow before I leave, when I will actually make some sense.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
unemployed.
ALL DONE!!!!!!!
Not only am I done work(see title) but I'm also done packing my room.
Sweet Relief.
Now all I have left to worry about is moving my stuff back to Azilda and packing my suitcases.
DUN DUN DUN
I already foresee how impossible this task will be.
Random thing I'm going to miss:
-having a bed
SG
Not only am I done work(see title) but I'm also done packing my room.
Sweet Relief.
Now all I have left to worry about is moving my stuff back to Azilda and packing my suitcases.
DUN DUN DUN
I already foresee how impossible this task will be.
Random thing I'm going to miss:
-having a bed
SG
Monday, September 29, 2008
I always believed in futures.
This is all so bittersweet. Everything is finally beginning to sink in.
I worked my last shift at Coles today. I'm not quite sure how I feel about that. I'm feeling very melancholic. When it comes down to it, they were all very good to me and I'm very fortunate to have met and worked with them.
[edit: I would like to add that I got the bessstt going away present!!]
No one said this would be easy.
Funny thing is that I don't feel like I have a choice in the matter. I need to do this. I have to do this.
The mountains are calling my name.
And with that, I leave you with some lyrics.
There's a lot that I don't know
There's a lot that I'm still learning
When I think I'm letting go
I find my body it's still burning
Yeah I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I've survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need life
I'll be lying in the dark
As I search for the resolution
And the bars are finally closed
So I try living in the moment
For the moment it just froze
And I felt sick and so alone
I worked my last shift at Coles today. I'm not quite sure how I feel about that. I'm feeling very melancholic. When it comes down to it, they were all very good to me and I'm very fortunate to have met and worked with them.
[edit: I would like to add that I got the bessstt going away present!!]
No one said this would be easy.
Funny thing is that I don't feel like I have a choice in the matter. I need to do this. I have to do this.
The mountains are calling my name.
And with that, I leave you with some lyrics.
There's a lot that I don't know
There's a lot that I'm still learning
When I think I'm letting go
I find my body it's still burning
Yeah I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I've survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah I just need life
I'll be lying in the dark
As I search for the resolution
And the bars are finally closed
So I try living in the moment
For the moment it just froze
And I felt sick and so alone
Saturday, September 27, 2008
i get by with a little help from my friends.
Note to self: buy a disposable camera for next friday night.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
move out west to dig the coast life.
There is one word to describe how I feel right now.
Overwhelmed.
I leave in 11 days and I am nowhere near prepared. My schedule for the next week looks like this:
Tuesday - 12 hour shift
Wednesday - 12 hour shift
Thursday - 12 hour shift
Friday - 12 hour shift
Sat- Off
Sun - Off
Monday - 12 hour shift
Tuesday - 12 hour shift
DONE DONE DONE WORK
Whoa, it seems even crazier when I actually put it down in writing. I just need to make as much money as I can before leaving. Between all this working I have to somehow find time to sort through everything and decide what I'm bringing and what is going back to my parents place.
I hope to see everyone at my going away party on Oct 3rd.
Until Then!
Overwhelmed.
I leave in 11 days and I am nowhere near prepared. My schedule for the next week looks like this:
Tuesday - 12 hour shift
Wednesday - 12 hour shift
Thursday - 12 hour shift
Friday - 12 hour shift
Sat- Off
Sun - Off
Monday - 12 hour shift
Tuesday - 12 hour shift
DONE DONE DONE WORK
Whoa, it seems even crazier when I actually put it down in writing. I just need to make as much money as I can before leaving. Between all this working I have to somehow find time to sort through everything and decide what I'm bringing and what is going back to my parents place.
I hope to see everyone at my going away party on Oct 3rd.
Until Then!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
packing is not all its cracked up to be.
Here I sit 13 days away from the biggest adventure of my life.
I've decided to start documenting this whole thing. Mostly for my own sanity but also for anyone who is interested.
I'll be updating this fairly often since I have loads on my mind. Feel free to keep checking back.
I've decided to start documenting this whole thing. Mostly for my own sanity but also for anyone who is interested.
I'll be updating this fairly often since I have loads on my mind. Feel free to keep checking back.
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