welcome to wherever you are.

I ate one of these today:



"A balut is a fertilized duck (or chicken) egg with a nearly-developed embryo inside that is boiled and eaten in the shell. They are common, everyday food in some countries in Southeast Asia, such as in the Philippines, Cambodia, and Vietnam."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balut_(egg)

Yeah, I know what you're thinking. It looks pretty disgusting. One of the cooks prepared some at work today and I was one of the few brave enough to try it. Not only did I try it but I ate the whole thing. It tasted like chicken and it went rather well with hot sauce.

Peta would have a field day.

not so posi.

I said these exact words yesterday "everything is going so well right now, I hope I don't jinx it."

Lo and behold, I got a phone call last night informing me that the musical is canceled. There are some issues with getting the rights to the scripts so its been called off. I just think its really shitty that they got everyone's hopes up. They should have gotten the rights before holding the auditions.

Ah well, shit happens.

I'm probably going to look into some more auditions. Now that I've gotten my toes wet again, I'm hungry for it!

posi.

It has been an unusually good week.

My parents called me last night and informed me that they were buying me a new computer. SCORE! I'm not exactly sure what I did to deserve it but I'm definitely grateful. And even though the computer I'm using works fine, it is almost 6 years old. Which is dinosaur status in the computing world.

I saw Meagan on Friday. Every time I hang out with this girl its a shit show. We went to this place called Morgan's Pub and we had a BLAST. And of course, I managed to make a fool of myself... it never fails. I was talking to this guy on my way out and slammed face first into a door.
Smooth Sylvie.
It brought some major lol's from meagan, tweet, alex and all the bouncers and random people that were near by when it happened.
And the guy litterally says to me "you may be a pretty girl but you just smashed into that door!"
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thanks tips!

In other news.... I got a LEAD ROLE in the musical I auditioned for!!!! wooooooo
The rehearsals start on tuesday. I'm very excited but also a little bit scared. I've never had a lead role! It will be hard work but I'm ready for it!!!!

Thats it for now!

Stay Classy Calgary!

carpe diem - carpe noctem

The desire to come home is always over-powered by the urgency to stay gone.
Its the push and the pull.

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I auditioned for a musical tonight. It went well for the most part but I wish I would have been less nervous. I can't help but pick everything apart and think of the things I would have done differently. Either way, my fate is now sealed and all I can do is wait.

It blows my mind to think that its been 6 years since my last musical.
6 years...
Time Flies!
and that's why its important to live for the moment.

so i leave to throw myself to the sharks.

keep on l i/o ving

Defiance, Ohio

"to the drifters! in hopes that our paths cross again.
to the homesick! home is when we do meet again.

our histories, our futures, our foundations, are hope.
it's a way to never forget.

i'll say goodbye. and hope never to mean it.
our love and our hope.
no nation or state can contain it.

if you call me up drunk, at four in the morning, no matter the timezones or state lines away.
i'll be on bus lines or burning up phone cards. just like i lived eight blocks away."


took the words right out of my mouth.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Some quotes that really hit home:

"For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

“It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. You realize what’s changed, is you.”

“We are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss.”

"It's not about how well you play, it's about how you feel about what you play."

Its good to be alive!

I've come to realize that a lot of my posts have been negative lately.

As homesick as I am, I'm actually pretty happy most of the time.

Its a beautiful day, the sun is shining.

And honestly, I wouldn't be here if I really didn't want to be.

Its just hard sometimes.

February?

I'm thinking that a visit home is in order.

But I'm afraid that if I go... I won't want to come back.

hmmmmm

I should be sleeping...

"If home is where the heart is
then we're all just fucked
I can't remember
And I want it so bad
I'd shoot the sunshine into my veins
I can't remember
The good old days

And it's kind of funny
The way we're wearing anchors on our shirts
When being anchored or bored
just feels like a curse"


Sometimes I miss home a lot.
Like now.

I need to get this out of my system. Whatever "this" may be.
It is what it is.

100 Resolutions

"Where have I been all your life?
Sitting on fences, a Novocaine for all the senses.
Another year will pass us by.
Making sense of nothing, in defense of something.
I laughed too late and dug myself into a grave.

This year I'll try not to think too much.
This year I'll try to stand up for myself.
This year I'll live like I've never lived before,
this is my year for sure.

Another stupid clumsy story.
More accidental aspirations.
Another explosion of silence.
I think I'm going deaf, or maybe I'm just hearing less.

This year I'll try to only listen to myself.
This year I'll try not to think too much.
This year I'll try to stand up for myself.
This year I'll live like I've never lived before,
this is my year for sure.

I wonder where you'll be bringing in the new year.
As midnight clocks are singing,
good chance I'll be slobbering somewhere.
Probably pass out, wasted, and sleep in til the smoke clears.
Vague memories of midnight flash in tune to morning sunlight.
Wake up knowing you'll never be there.

I've got 100 resolutions, but I've got no solutions.
I've got one song I write 100 times.
And only a dozen or so rhymes.

This year I'll try not to drink so much.
This year I'll try to stand up straight.
This year let's live liked we've never lived before,
this is our year for sure."

-The Lawrence Arms

Happy New Year guys!