"Leave home
Leave familiar
Leave the course you're on because you never wanted to be here in the first place.
Leave him
Leave her
Leave because they don't appreciate your love, now do they really?
Leave working for someone else's dream
Leave the shitty scene
Leave your comfortable couch
Leave convention
Respectability
Responsibility
Obligation.
Leave the guilt
sorrow
abuse
violence
rape
Leave it in the past because fuck them for attempting to ruin your future.
Leave apprehension
Leave intimidation
Leave "what's right", because who are they to tell you anyway.
Leave Glasgow
Leave New York
Leave Miami
Leave Chicago
a plane
Bus
Train
School application
Job application
Leave soul killing jobs
Leave negative people
Leave dead relationships
You are wasting your time
Your life
Your talent
Your love
Your opportunity
And with each passing day you slowly lose your shine
your glow
your spark
your fight
your heart.
You talk about it all the time.
Just fucking leave...
And find yourself."
-CG
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
sunsets in calgary make the sky look like its on fire.
Taken at 6:30 pm.
I'm just going to link the picture because posting it here makes it look bad.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v169/sylvie58/IMG_2662.jpg
I'm just going to link the picture because posting it here makes it look bad.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v169/sylvie58/IMG_2662.jpg
Saturday, October 25, 2008
running down a dream that never would come to me.
I think I might finally have a job. That damn temp agency finally got in touch with me. Unfortunately I was up in the mountains and missed the call. Once I got back into town I returned the phone call so hopefully I'll have more info on Monday.
FYI the mountains are majestic. There is nothing I could do or say and no amount of pictures that will do it justice.
I've decided to finally take guitar lessons. Once I start making money I'm going to hire someone to come to my house once a week and show me how its done.
Some Random But Interesting Things That Have Happened Recently:
- They were shooting a cop movie downtown last week. I'd never seen anything like it. They had props and light and extras everywhere. It was really neat.
- I found an amazing used bookstore downtown. The shelves towered over me and I could have gotten lost in their Contemporary Literature section .
- TUBBY DOG. The best and fattest restaurent I've ever been to. I had a hot dog with cheese, mayo, bacon, mustard, ketchup and potato chips. delicious! Next time I think I'm going to try sherm's ultimate gripper. Its a dog wrapped in bacon and then deep fried, topped with ham, homemade chili, cheese, mustard, bacon, hot peppers, caramelized onions and a fried egg. Can you say YUM?
Funny Calgary Facts:
-Down here, pedestrians ALWAYS have the right of way. They stop and let people cross pretty much anywhere. cross walk or not.
FYI the mountains are majestic. There is nothing I could do or say and no amount of pictures that will do it justice.
I've decided to finally take guitar lessons. Once I start making money I'm going to hire someone to come to my house once a week and show me how its done.
Some Random But Interesting Things That Have Happened Recently:
- They were shooting a cop movie downtown last week. I'd never seen anything like it. They had props and light and extras everywhere. It was really neat.
- I found an amazing used bookstore downtown. The shelves towered over me and I could have gotten lost in their Contemporary Literature section .
- TUBBY DOG. The best and fattest restaurent I've ever been to. I had a hot dog with cheese, mayo, bacon, mustard, ketchup and potato chips. delicious! Next time I think I'm going to try sherm's ultimate gripper. Its a dog wrapped in bacon and then deep fried, topped with ham, homemade chili, cheese, mustard, bacon, hot peppers, caramelized onions and a fried egg. Can you say YUM?
Funny Calgary Facts:
-Down here, pedestrians ALWAYS have the right of way. They stop and let people cross pretty much anywhere. cross walk or not.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
just keep dreaming and you'll find a place and a part of you, you thought was dead.
Toto, I've a feeling we're not in Ontario anymore.
The view from Calgary Tower.
The view from Calgary Tower.
Friday, October 17, 2008
and I know that this is new like your first day of school.
It seems that things are falling into place quite nicely. I found a place to live come December 1st. I'm moving in with a friend of a friend. The apartment is right downtown (amazing location!!) the room is nice and big, lots of closet space, and the girl who is moving out is leaving me her bed and her desk. I don't even need to worry about buying any furniture. It's perfect!! Not to mention, the price is right.
The job search isn't going as well as I'd hoped. I applied at a temp agency. Basically what they do is they place you in different office jobs around the city as you're needed. The upside to this is that it keeps things interesting since you're changing jobs all the time. The downside is that I'm not really sure if I like working in an office. I'm thinking it might help me explore things I wouldn't otherwise think of trying. So who knows, maybe I'll love it. They haven't called me yet and I'm getting tired of sitting around waiting for a call.
2 weeks + no job = i feel useless
Not to mention I need to start saving up to pay first and last. I think that once I'm living downtown I'll just get a job serving at one of the amazing bars/restaurants near my apartment.
I'm very excited for this weekend. We've got some really fun stuff planned. I finally get to see the mountains up close. This is the reason I came down here in the first place. I'm sure standing in front of those huge peaks will make me feel very small and insignificant. We're also going to a shooting range. Yes, I'm apparently going to shoot a gun. I don't know how I feel about this but it might be fun. I'll make sure to take lots of pictures.
And on a final note. Last night while talking to my mom on the phone she reminded me that it's my birthday soon. There has just been so much happening in the last month that it completely slipped my mind.
22 years old. time flies
Until next time!!!!
"Let's fall deeper into sleep
And our dreams become fake reality
I wake, i hope.
I'm on my way, to a coast
Where I know the roads like the back of my hand
Familiar landscapes"
The job search isn't going as well as I'd hoped. I applied at a temp agency. Basically what they do is they place you in different office jobs around the city as you're needed. The upside to this is that it keeps things interesting since you're changing jobs all the time. The downside is that I'm not really sure if I like working in an office. I'm thinking it might help me explore things I wouldn't otherwise think of trying. So who knows, maybe I'll love it. They haven't called me yet and I'm getting tired of sitting around waiting for a call.
2 weeks + no job = i feel useless
Not to mention I need to start saving up to pay first and last. I think that once I'm living downtown I'll just get a job serving at one of the amazing bars/restaurants near my apartment.
I'm very excited for this weekend. We've got some really fun stuff planned. I finally get to see the mountains up close. This is the reason I came down here in the first place. I'm sure standing in front of those huge peaks will make me feel very small and insignificant. We're also going to a shooting range. Yes, I'm apparently going to shoot a gun. I don't know how I feel about this but it might be fun. I'll make sure to take lots of pictures.
And on a final note. Last night while talking to my mom on the phone she reminded me that it's my birthday soon. There has just been so much happening in the last month that it completely slipped my mind.
22 years old. time flies
Until next time!!!!
"Let's fall deeper into sleep
And our dreams become fake reality
I wake, i hope.
I'm on my way, to a coast
Where I know the roads like the back of my hand
Familiar landscapes"
Saturday, October 11, 2008
my reach is global. my cause is noble.
SG is finally online.
This town is incredible. There is no way around it.
I experienced my first bout of homesickness when my friends (aka: my family) all called me last night. But to be honest... I really expected it to be harder than this. Don't get me wrong. Its really hard to be away from the people I love but I still haven't had any second thoughts about my decision. I'm slowly meeting people and making friends. I'm still amazed at how nice and welcoming people are in this town. I have only met ONE original Calgary resident since I've moved down here. Oddly enough everyone is either from New Brunswick or Ontario.
I still haven't found a job. I had a promising opportunity working in the kitchen at an AMAZING bistro but they were looking for kitchen staff... not servers. I thought that maybe I could jump right back in and work in a kitchen again after my two year break.
I was wrong.
It's really horrible to realize that my thousands of dollars went to waste but I really can't work in a kitchen anymore. I was really convinced that one day I would maybe be able to pick up where I left off but the reality of the matter is that it will NEVER happen. After working a shift in the kitchen the other night I have come to realize just how much I despise working on a line. It's really a shame because I would have fit in so perfectly at this establishment. Everyone took me in with open arms and I just loved the size, the atmosphere and even the owner of the place. I'm disappointed that he didn't have any serving jobs available. I didn't burn any bridges though and if he ever needs someone he said he would give me a call first and foremost. So keep your fingers crossed for me.
I'm going to end this for now because it's really late and I'm drowsy but I still have soooooo much to say therefore I will update the first chance I get.
keep on l i/o ving.
SG
This town is incredible. There is no way around it.
I experienced my first bout of homesickness when my friends (aka: my family) all called me last night. But to be honest... I really expected it to be harder than this. Don't get me wrong. Its really hard to be away from the people I love but I still haven't had any second thoughts about my decision. I'm slowly meeting people and making friends. I'm still amazed at how nice and welcoming people are in this town. I have only met ONE original Calgary resident since I've moved down here. Oddly enough everyone is either from New Brunswick or Ontario.
I still haven't found a job. I had a promising opportunity working in the kitchen at an AMAZING bistro but they were looking for kitchen staff... not servers. I thought that maybe I could jump right back in and work in a kitchen again after my two year break.
I was wrong.
It's really horrible to realize that my thousands of dollars went to waste but I really can't work in a kitchen anymore. I was really convinced that one day I would maybe be able to pick up where I left off but the reality of the matter is that it will NEVER happen. After working a shift in the kitchen the other night I have come to realize just how much I despise working on a line. It's really a shame because I would have fit in so perfectly at this establishment. Everyone took me in with open arms and I just loved the size, the atmosphere and even the owner of the place. I'm disappointed that he didn't have any serving jobs available. I didn't burn any bridges though and if he ever needs someone he said he would give me a call first and foremost. So keep your fingers crossed for me.
I'm going to end this for now because it's really late and I'm drowsy but I still have soooooo much to say therefore I will update the first chance I get.
keep on l i/o ving.
SG
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
SWEET JESUS I FOUND WIFI
I have been carrying my computer around with me in hopes of finding some internet to steal. That day is finally upon us.
So after all the decisions and planning and packing and worrying and tears.
I am FINALLY here.
It feels surreal to say the least. The plane ride was very long and turbulent. I was very nauseous so I popped two gravol and passed out for three hours. Thank goodness for drugs.
This town is very strange. I feel like I'm in another world. The traffic lights hang horizontal instead of vertical and some of the fire hydrants I've encountered are green.
This is really rushed. I have a lot to say but my computer is dying. I should have the internet this week sometime so I'll update for real when I have the time and can actually get everything out coherently.
It's good to be alive!
Stay in love, fall in touch,
Sylvie Gee
So after all the decisions and planning and packing and worrying and tears.
I am FINALLY here.
It feels surreal to say the least. The plane ride was very long and turbulent. I was very nauseous so I popped two gravol and passed out for three hours. Thank goodness for drugs.
This town is very strange. I feel like I'm in another world. The traffic lights hang horizontal instead of vertical and some of the fire hydrants I've encountered are green.
This is really rushed. I have a lot to say but my computer is dying. I should have the internet this week sometime so I'll update for real when I have the time and can actually get everything out coherently.
It's good to be alive!
Stay in love, fall in touch,
Sylvie Gee
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I wake up to find its another four aspirin morning and I dive in.
Ow my head...
I'm such a drama queen.
My last entry was all sorts of awesome.
Despite all the tears, I had a blast last night. It makes it that much harder to leave.
Side note (LOL): butler is wearing holey tighty whiteys right now (or should I say loosey whiteys because they are DEFINITELY not tight) and I definitely just saw his junk.
I'm gonna miss my friends.
I am very calm right now, lets take bets on how long that will last.
This will most likely be my last post until I am in Calgary. I have a very long plane ride ahead of me.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
I'm such a drama queen.
My last entry was all sorts of awesome.
Despite all the tears, I had a blast last night. It makes it that much harder to leave.
Side note (LOL): butler is wearing holey tighty whiteys right now (or should I say loosey whiteys because they are DEFINITELY not tight) and I definitely just saw his junk.
I'm gonna miss my friends.
I am very calm right now, lets take bets on how long that will last.
This will most likely be my last post until I am in Calgary. I have a very long plane ride ahead of me.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Friday, October 3, 2008
nobody said it was easy,
Well.
Here I am.
Not quite sure what to say.
My goodbye party just finished.
Pretty sure I cried so much I now look like a crack whore.
I have said so many hellos and goodbyes in the last five years yet it never gets any easier.
I can`t believe I leave tomorrow.
I found out who is taking my job at Coles tonight. For some reason that BREAKS my heart. It feels like my boyfriend is cheating on me. I guess I have to let go eventually. Its just really hard to feel like I have been replaced. I have to keep reminding myself that this is for my own good.
Here I am, uncanded and rambling.
More tomorrow before I leave, when I will actually make some sense.
Here I am.
Not quite sure what to say.
My goodbye party just finished.
Pretty sure I cried so much I now look like a crack whore.
I have said so many hellos and goodbyes in the last five years yet it never gets any easier.
I can`t believe I leave tomorrow.
I found out who is taking my job at Coles tonight. For some reason that BREAKS my heart. It feels like my boyfriend is cheating on me. I guess I have to let go eventually. Its just really hard to feel like I have been replaced. I have to keep reminding myself that this is for my own good.
Here I am, uncanded and rambling.
More tomorrow before I leave, when I will actually make some sense.
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